Monday, February 21, 2011

There have been lots of emotions and feelings surfacing the last couple of days. Love, fear, compassion, fury, annoyance, happiness, joy, giddiness, relief, worry, gratitude, and hope, to name a few. It isn't natural to watch your child lay in a hospital bed. Every instinct is to want to make it better, and your hands are tied. You have to trust others to know what is best for your baby. Can they possibly know how to take care of your baby?

Though there have been some scary moments, things are looking up, and gratitude is the over-riding emotion of the day. God is in His heaven. He knows our needs. He knows.

Sorry if this is dramatic. But the situation has been a little dramatic. There have been some silver linings, though. I've spent about 15 hours of quality one-on-one time with my daughter in the last 2 days, during which time we have managed to laugh and have some hysterical moments. Life is good.

{And P.S. the fury and annoyance were not directed at my sweet patient. Inefficiencies and incompetence are just not acceptable when so much hangs in the balance. Grr.}


The Wizzle said...

Goooooooo mama bear!

runningfan said...

I'm so glad you are here, and that we can laugh, and that you are taking care of MY babies. And thanks for the pajamas!!

Melanie said...

Can't get over your timely arrival on the scene. What comfort you've brought to Heidi and her family. Three cheers!

joeyship said...

I just cry every time I read a post from Heido. It breaks my heart to know she is suffering so. SO glad you are able to be there with her. Please know that I think of her constantly and wish I could do something to help. Give her my love, and keep some for you, too.